I know, Nyota. They should know. But then I would have to tell them it happened while I was on my way home from my honeymoon and then I would have to tell people Merlin left. People would ask where he was and I would have to explain and I can't handle that right now. !I>[Charlie's voice is far from steady. It shakes and hitched s and breaks and as hard as she fights it, tears well up in her eyes and roll down her cheeks. Everything hurts and sympathy from her friends and family would make it worse.]